When you loose , "dont freak out " March 26, 2008

Just yesterday on my way home , I got a text and it was not shocking but I concluded instead of feeling downcast , I’ll rather get on my knees .
When you lose what you love you go through five stages:

(1) Denial – “No, it can’t be happening.”

(2) Anger – “God, why are You permitting this?”

(3) Bargaining – “Please make it go away.”

(4) Depression – Silence and withdrawal.

(5) Acceptance – “Not my will but Yours be done.”
Whether it’s the loss of a child, a marriage, a job, your health, love (your guy /babe ) when you turn to God He’ll give you the grace to embrace it, grieve it, express it, release it, and go on to become stronger. Sometimes we seek quick relief by releasing it before we’ve gone through these stages. That’s because we fear the process. We’ve been taught that any show of emotion is a show of weakness, so we stuff it. But we only stuff it into our emotional rubbish bin, then spend all our time and energy sitting on the lid, trying to keep the contents from spilling out. It’s knowing and embracing the truth, including its painful aspects, that sets you free , but how many of us can allow ourselves to go through this process .
We must be willing to forgive. But until we come to grips with the enormity of we rush to forgive, we forgive only in part and we’re released only in part.
Are we running from pain today? Are we trading it in prematurely for some other feeling? That’s not God’s way , we will weep and mourn… but [eventually] our grief will turn to joy… and no one will take [it] away”. Oh God I cant wait .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feel how you want to be treated March 25, 2008

Hey , it was my birthday on the 21st of Marcb, great day is it ? I never thought the celebration will begin from the 20th , when my co-workers organised a very beautiful cake and gave me a suprise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 , I was touched , the reason was because it was beyond my expectation , it wasnt too much of them but I was’nt expecting it.The main reason was because I didnt feel too special to be treated that way , morever the day after which was the D-day brought even more amazing suprises than the previous whao!!!!!!!!! people care , irrespective of how you know them ,I didnt feel I deserve so much calls and remmberance this year , because the previous year was dry , maybe if I have felt better I would have had more suprises , more gifts and all sorts , As a matter of fact we need to feel special about ourselves , what you feel determines how people respond towards you in terms of feelings , a verse in the bible says ,”thank you lord because I am fearfully and wonderfully made” that is the extend we need to feel about ourselves ,so WONDERFUL , a friend of mine gave me a long call that day, and I was narrating all thaT had happened and she was like, hey girl ! you are so speacial , I feel people love you so much and you dont know the extent which you have touched lives and I was marvelled , come to think of it I just met this Grlfriend of mine , if she feels this way how much more people I had known in the past.All of us need encouragement, and the beautiful part about encouragement is this: anybody can do it!”You might have been Harassed by demands and deadlines; bruised by worry, adversity and failure; broken by disillusionment and defeated by sin, they live somewhere between dull discouragement and sheer panic but, feel Good today because someone , somewhere , somehow cares , feel Good only you can trully make your self feel it

My birthday March 20, 2008

Its my birthday tommorrow and am happy , I ll fill you in much more later
love love !!!!!!!!!!!!!!got a suprise

UNFORTUNATE SITUATION March 18, 2008

At times I wonder why , do we loose things , OPPS !!!!!!!!! I hate looking for stuffs , its like suffering looking for something you have in your hands or at sight a minute/second ago , its even very funny that you might not see the stuff immediately although you need it urgently , then you see it much later when you dont need it again .

Many at times we misplace things that are valuable uknowningly like a Gold chain , or one leg of shoe ,at times you contemplate on getting a stuff probably then you don t have much , then the stuff gets misplaced a little while after thr acquisition .At times your stuff can fall in a muddy place of even inside the gutter unfortunately you might not be ableto pick it again , or if might get damaged when it falls .

A clearer picture of what am trying to say was a day I misplaced my purse in my friends car , she dropped me off and on retuning I have no money to God back Atm would have been my easiest way of getting money but it’s inmy purse , so another friend of mine , decided to loan me some money , I dropped by to see a friend who was hospitalised and all the while I kept the loaned money in mu pocket . I met two guys in the hospital who were goingmy way , we decided to leave together on getting to the car pack I discovered the loaned money was missing , whao !!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG , I almost freaked out , what? even the loaned money is missing so am left with nothing , I had to bury my pride and told the guys with me that I dont have anymoney on me ,God being so Good they told me not to worry , I was very downcast , they encouraged me and gave me some money which was beyond my expectation , when God is at work , he gives an avenue for praise , all Glory has to be returned and given to him despite all odds , .

IF I

If i have a song for everyhear thats broken and everyone that can’t go on , for everychildhood dreams that has never been realised ,
if I have answers to everyquestions that lies in everyone’s mind ,if , if , if .
Really most of us use this word like everytime , some say if I was the presisdent I would do this and th at, some say if it was me , I would and I wouldnt , but alas the reason why we feel IF is because we have not been in some shoes some people are wearong presently now , and it could be IF I have done this or that , meaning a statement of regret, but when deeds are done and gone if they are unpalatable regrets sets in , mostly IF they are our mistakes , then we look back and say IF I had known. We live a life of ups and down some win some , some loose some , some win all , some loose all , only IF you are determined to run things and not let things run you , but at times its the other way round , only God has the answer to this .
My IF is IF I have wounded any soul today , IF I have forced some people to so astray , IF I have worked in my own willful way , dear Lord forgive .
Why IF ?